:::So it's been a while since I posted anything..so here it goes.. Emma is now 10 months old.. she is a crawling champ. Not too interested in walking..well I should say..she isn't interested in walking at all.. She does walk around stuff and hold on to it.. but no steps without holding on. She stands up alone...then realizes it.. and drops down to her butt and starts crawling. I feel like I should start a pool about when she will start walking..
Everyone tells me not to rush it.. because when she starts walking..that's when all the ....."fun" starts..
So..10 months into it.. and Emma still refuses to sleep thru the night..so needless to say I am exhausted..miserable and look like hell . I get told constantly to let her "cry it out"..well I would like to tell you that is easier said than done. We live in a 1 br apt and I sleep in the living room on the couch while Emma sleeps in her crib next to me. So.. being within 10 feet of a screaming baby isn't the most relaxing place to be. From what I am told and read ...She is using me as a pacifier since I breastfeed.. she is looking for comfort in nursing. So I have to try and break her of that. :( Once she wakes up.. I nurse her for like 10-15 minutes then she is back to sleep. Which is much better than her staying up for hours.. I get that. But all this interrupted sleep is killing me. I would say on average I get about 2 hours of uninterrupted sleep per night. if that. As I write this.. Emma is screaming and crying and staring at me. I hate this...it makes me so sad/anxious/nuts. And tonight I gave her chamomile tea.. which from what I read ..and heard it is "supposed" to work.. Well 1oz down..and she is still up and screaming..
I have well rested mothers envy, I can't stand hearing people say..Oh.. my baby sleeps great ...they always have. If they only knew what I am doing to them in my mind as they are telling me this....they would probably just shut up and leave me alone. But no such luck much like the unsolicited advice I receive I still get told how everyone else's baby is sleeping so well.. and that I should do this..and do that.. yeah yeah yeah.
November 18, 2011
::: Update.. The chamomile tea did absolutely nothing.. sigh.. She only drank about an ounce.. So I will try again tonight and try and get her to drink more. In the mean time I am gonna search the internet trying to find something...I am desperate at this point. I just want to sleep O_o
So today..Emma has a playdate with her little friend Gianna :) But first...mommy needs some coffee and we are out of coffee ...so once Emma wakes up again.. I am gonna have to bundle her up and run to DD to get some coffee.. Right now its about 30 degrees outside..brrr.. And let me just say I cannot believe it is almost Christmas..and Emma will be 1 soon!! crazy ...this year flew by. I am gonna look thru her pics and post a timeline of sorts...Sometimes I miss my little newborn. But honestly Emma is at such a fun age right now.. I love it.
I am currently trying to come up with some sort of timeline to display at her 1st birthday party.. :)
Well .. I am out of here for now.. :) Have a great day
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