Why my body is better than her body....

I can't help looking at other women and seeing their "perfect" bodies and wanting to smack them...cry.. throw up and eat a cheeseburger.. while I don't do all of these things when this happens.. I may do one or two of them.. but that's besides the point..

I look at my stretch marked belly.. my huge ass and thighs and sigh.. just last year.. I was skinny.. wearing cute clothes.. sporting a bikini.. now.. look at me..

But..then a light bulb goes off.. while some women (freaks of nature) go back to looking the same way they did before the baby 2 months after they give birth....I am a part of the bigger percentage..literally bigger.. that didn't go right back to my pre-baby body as much as this drives me insane.. and makes me sad...my body is better than most bodies.. because my body MADE a baby and was HOME to that baby for 37 weeks...most skinny little bitches can't say that.. so there.. in YOUR face.

If you are one of those freaks of nature that went right back to their pre baby bodies.. I don't want to offend you. but I do hate you.

xoxo
Tanya

My Baybay :)

I figured I would update everyone on what Emma is doing nowadays :)

She is has tried all of the fruits and veggies that Gerber makes for Stage 1 and LOVES them.. She has also tried and LOVES Beech Nut 's Beef,Chicken, & Turkey :) She tries to feed herself..she either takes the spoon from me..or grabs the food off of the spoon and smashes it in her mouth..& all over her face ! It's quite a mess :) She eats cereal with fruit in the morning..her milk throughout the day ...then for dinner she gets a meat and a veggie.. sometimes she is a little piggy and eats her meat and 2 containers of veggies (she doesnt get alot of meat ..because its very thick ) 

She's doing much better with her infection too..She is on her 2nd dose of antibiotics and had all her tests come back normal!! She was a trooper in the hospital during her VCUG (I think thats what its called ) they put a catheter in.. ran dye and liquid into her bladder and took x-rays while she peed. They had to make sure her valves weren't reversed.. since she had an UTI and at the ER wasnt successful taking an urine sample thru a catheter her dr wanted to make sure it was an UTI and not the reflux problem in her valves. She also got a ultrasound of her kidneys which also came back normal. So everything is good.. I think maybe she infection came from too many bubbles in the bath.. I am being more cautious of that now. 

She rolls over all the time now. However only from her back to belly.. She hasn't master belly to back yet ...But she rolls over in her crib and sleeps on her belly now... or she sleeps on her side :) She doesn't always sleep thru the night.. but I am okay with that.. seeing that little smile in the middle of the night.. makes it all worth it. And I have been co-sleeping ...I know I know.. huge mistake. .. but whatever.. I love her sleeping with me :) Sometimes she wakes up in the middle of the night and isn't hungry.. she just wants to sleep with me.. I have and ...I am creating a monster.. most likely. lol

She sits up with some support.. She can sit unsupported for a few seconds then topples over. She is getting better at it.. She has sat up without support for about 30 seconds.. but that doesn't happen that often .But she is getting there ;)

She found her "voice" and is quite vocal about everything lol.. She also "cheers" for herself.. when she does something she screams on top of her lungs and laughes its the cutest thing ever.. AND...she has the BABY LAUGH now!! the cute contagious BABY LAUGH! She is ticklish on her belly !!It is so cute!!! I am trying to get a video of it! 

She also tries to hold her bottle when I feed her.. She can hold it for like 10 seconds then it drops lol But she is getting better at it more and more each day . 

And I am sure of it now .. she is a thumbsucker.. it is official .. She falls asleep like that .. all the time.. and I think it is friggin adorable!! :0)

We got her a walker with some of her baptism money ...but her little feet don't touch yet :( oh well.. I am sure it won't be long.. 

Oh and during her tests she had to get these past couple weeks.. SHE WAS A TROOPER.. only crying a little bit and after it was all said and done.. was back to smiling like usual... :) She is my little ray of sunshine.. :)

And breastfeeding is still going well.. I do supplement with formula every now and then. So she is getting bonus vitamins!! 

Well that's Emma in a nutshell right now :)